I WISH I KNEW HOW IT STARTED
My first signed 8 track album is a journey through Berlin’s nightlife. The highs, the chaos, the small moments that stay with you.
Each track shows fragments of club culture: brief connections, shifting identities, and the pull between euphoria and emptiness. Based on my own experiences, the album blends emotion with hypnotic grooves. Released on Diffuse Reality Records.
After the intro track “Before the Sun Rises”, the album moves into the transformation that happens in the darkness. “How the Night Changed Us” is about how Berlin can strip away who you thought you were. “Behind Closed Doors” and “Nameless Bodies” take you into the hidden, hedonistic spaces of the night, and everyone becomes a nameless part of the crowd.
But there’s also another side to it. In “The Weight of Silence”, you feel how fast these moments can disappear. “These Chains That Bind Us” is about the tension between wanting to stay in the club and the pull of reality waiting outside.
Finally, “Fragmented Identity” looks at the feeling of coming out of it all a bit different, a bit unsure of which parts of you are real.
*Released on Diffuse Reality Records.
THE DIVIDED I
Looking in the mirror, you see versions of yourself scattered and incomplete. The person you are, the person you were, and the person you’re becoming—they’re all there, but they don’t fit together anymore.
“The Divided I”, a conceptual title playing on the word “I” (self), explores the dual meaning of “I” as both the self and the act of self-identification.
It’s about how I feel caught between various versions of myself: the one I am, the one I have left behind, and the one I wish to be. This division is not always visible to others; however, it feels like a deep inner conflict. This first track follows the battle between these different versions of myself, as if they’re fighting for dominance, yet none fully represents the whole of who I am. I layered patterns from the same synthesizer, to create a sense of movement between the push and pull of my identity, offering a window into this internal struggle.
“The Mirror’s Edge” plays with the idea of a mirror as a boundary between reality and the alternate versions of myself.
I think of it as a point of convergence, an edge of a mirror where reality and illusion blend. It’s a dividing line where I am reflected but also distorted into other versions of myself that exist only in the mirror. This second track is the tension of standing on that boundary: the magnetism of who I am versus who I could become.
Through contrasting sound effects and flute rhythms, I reveal these two worlds, trying to get myself into a hypnotic state. In this state, the line between the real and imagined versions of myself begins to dissolve.
METAMORPHOSIS
The title, “METAMORPHOSIS” reflects a pivotal moment in my life. It’s a nod to the realization that the classical music path I once pursued with full dedication could not fulfill all my creative desires. This EP represents my journey of breaking away from those expectations and exploring the possibilities of electronic music.
As a professional flutist, this EP allowed me to merge two worlds that I mostly see as separate. By recording and incorporating extended techniques on the flute to create percussive and textural elements, I wanted to understand if these two worlds can coexist and even enhance each other in unexpected ways.
This project is deeply personal. It’s about embracing change and having the courage to follow your true calling. Classical music taught me discipline and technique, but electronic music gives me the freedom to innovate and express myself fully. The sounds you hear in this EP are evidence of that transformation.
Recording a full library with extended techniques on the flute was both challenging and liberating. Techniques like overblowing, key clicks, tongue rams, and slaps were recorded to create percussive and ambient sounds. It’s an experimental process that mirrors my own experimental journey in music.
I hope this EP resonates with anyone who has felt confined by their circumstances or expectations. “METAMORPHOSIS” is a statement of liberation and the pursuit of authenticity. It’s about listening to your inner voice, accepting that the dream you fought so hard for is maybe no longer your dream and having the courage to change your path, no matter how established it might seem.